[< There has to be a happy medium > ]
[ Monday, Mar. 27, 2006 ]
[12:40 p.m.]
Last night, i attempted - again - to "fit in" with my hippy friends. it was a close friends birthday and there was a potluck involved. I am all for potlucks, it's a great idea. But these potlucks are so stressful because 99% (my hubby and i being the other 1%) are vegetarian, vegan, and organic crazies! i never know what to bring. I settled on a black bean salad - vegetarian/vegan friendly, but sadly not organic.
Anyway, Hubby and i were barely in the door 3 minutes and someone was ranting about how their child never ate unnatural sugars, and wasn't allowed to eat candy because of all the dyes involved... and ONLY sugars found naturally such as maple syrup, honey, and fruits were allowed. This, by the way, she said right after the hosts 8 year old daughter offered her some candy from her charity vending machine.
Everyone at these functions are "involved". They are involved in everything, in art, music, drama, radio, protests, fundraisers, performances...i know they are looking down their noses at me when i say... "i don't do much but work... Oh, and i work in the Oil and Gas industry"
This is where my *love* of small talk is a serious draw back for me. I spent the majority of the night avoiding conversations with people, and ended up sitting on the stoop trying to breathe and regain control. Why is it i feel so alone in a house full of people? Why is it that i have such a difficult time connecting with this city?
Y'know, my idea of a good time involves watching a movie and eating some popcorn, or chilling out and discussing interesting topics. i don't even know why i went, i mean, i was already having a tough time figuring out who i am without having all these hippies making me feel like i'm 4 years old.
So here's my proclamation:
- I enjoy McDonalds. I know, it's not even real FOOD!
- I enjoy unnatural sugars and dyes that are harmful as long as i can eat them in a Skittle.
- I think it's awesome that you haven't watched TV in 3 years. I however can't leave the house on Monday nights without first setting my VCR to tape Prison Break.
- I don't do Yoga everyday. Although maybe i should.
- I have never been to a 20 day meditation Camp, i think this would be a waste of money.
- i have no, and i mean this... ABSOLUTELY NO problem eating an animal. Especially if that animal is BBQ'd and smothered in Unnatural-Sugar-and-Harmful-Dyes-Barbeque Sauce.
look, it's not that i don't like you, it's just that sometimes you make me feel ashamed to be who i am. Watching movies Or eating meat doesn't make me less of a person. I find it so frustrating to be around these people because no matter what i have to say, it's always balanced against how they percieve me. NOT one of them.
There has to be a happy medium. Because i don't know how much longer i can do this.
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