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[ Thursday, Apr. 27, 2006 ]
[7:13 a.m.]
I don't know what's going on. Spring is supposed to be the season of re-birth, but all i see around me are people dealing with the pain of loss, or terminal illness.
A friend of mine just lost someone very close to her recently. It was sudden. It was unexplained. She was only 25.
when i got her email - i wanted to reach through the computer and give her a hug. I think that it's human nature to want to help people. And at a time like that you offer your help, yet you know that there isn't much you can actually do. There's a feeling of complete helplessness. The most you can do is offer to be around when/if they need to talk.
Yesterday i got another emaili from a friend of mine. Her mother has been dealing with ALS or Lou Gerhig's Disease for over a year. from what i understand it's a very long process where the body continues to shut down. If anyone has read the book or seen the movie Tuesdays With Morrie, that's what he had.
Anyway, i can't imagine the kind of strength and unconditional love it would take to watch your parent or loved one slowly die right in front of your eyes. Right now, her mom can't do anything for herself. She needs almost constant care.
Tuesday night my friend recieved an emergency phone call from her parents house. Her first thougth was "MOM" but as it turned out, her father had a pretty serious seisure, and the Care giver showed up at the house and found him and called my friend.
They took him to the hospital - to find out he has a tumor in his brain the size of a golf ball.
He's going for surgery this week.
i want to fix both of my friends. i want to be able to wave my magic wand and say "There you go! All better" but there's nothing that i am physically able to do to change either of their situations. I guess i just have to constantly support and send my love energy and prayers their way. Offer my services as a friend/listener.
I am thinking of you both.
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